More hope, more faith
Every year I look at my ornaments and think I need to do something to unify them. Maybe more of the stars or more of the red or the silver? I decide it's a mess. Then I try to figure out, which ones I could get rid of in favor of that unifying business... and then I can't find any. I just like them all too much. Several minutes later I realize I actually like how it looks. It's pretty and festive and very personal. I have pretty ornaments, just not 10 of each. I'm ok with that. Until next year, of course, wehn I look at the tree and...
I am not big on New Year's resolutions, in fact I could never think of any. It's a very American thing, too. I don't remember resolutions being a big thing growing up. This year I do have some, well, call them renewed resolutions, because it's an ongoing fight.
- Get more sleep. Duh.
- Get more rest during the day. Let me explain. I'm not talking about lounging. I just need to stop hounding myself. Even though I know better I still somehow delude myself that given enough effort, I can get everything done. As a consequence I contribute to the stress in my head by setting unattainable goals. Everyone suffers because of it. I need to practice taking a break, even if it's only a few minutes and even if the house is a mess. Nobody will die of mess and truly I don't care what "people" think of me. All those "people", who are never at my house anyway. (Actually I think it is just my pride, who I slave away for. Not exactly a noble thing.)
- Get a sitter for evenings on a regular basis. I need to see my husband more. By "seeing" I don't mean preceiving with seeing organs as he walks out the door in the morning.
- Write more, sew more. This is the one that will probably go down the tube within oh, a day. But I will try nevertheless. This stuff feeds my head and my spirit. I simply function better and I see more clearly. Things that are important come into focus and the nagging voice in my head takes a break.
- Save more money. Ha ha!